H. Incorporated : J.R.

"C'est un peu embarrassant d'avoir été occupé une vie entière par le problème humain et de réaliser à la fin de sa vie qu'on n'a pas de meilleur conseil à donner que : essaye réellement d'être un peu plus gentil"

Aldous Huxley

Bruno Jasiensky. Ce qui fait quatre. Concourir trois fièvres. Ce qui fait trois. Les augmenter, qu'elles tombent plutôt deux fois qu'une, d'un exutoire. Avec la complicité de Dominique A. "Autant que possible". Par combustion. "Autant que possible". A l'intuition.

Jouer sous l'eau. Risquer l'hydrocution. La Suède a tout foutu par terre. Sur le grill, dans la rue, sur un capot. Jouer sous l'eau. "Agitant ses grelots, elle avança et prononça ses mots : Almeria"...

Management par projet & coopération décentralisée. Marcher dans le ciel de Dallas au nom du Père, du Fils & de la ruse de l'Histoire en extra aveuglant seulement maintenant : Diana Prince - pendant. Pierre Akendengue. Après.

- "Phil... Phil, come here. I'm gonna try to talk. I'm gonna try to say something something... Do-do you know Lily ? Do you know her ?
- No.
- Lily ?
- No, I don't.
- She's my love, my life lover. In school when I was 12 years old, in school, in six grade, I saw her and I didn't go to that school but... We met. My friend knew her, I said "What's that girl ? How's that Lily ?" "She's bad... She sex with guys" he said that but then some time, I went to another school but then... When high school at the end, what's that ? What is that ? When you get to the end ?
- Graduation ?
- No, no, the grade... What's grade ?
- Twelve.
- Oh yeah... So I go to her school for that grade, grade twelve and we meet... She was... a kind of doll... beautiful porcelain doll... And her hips... child bearing hips... Y'know that ? So... And I cheated on her. Over and over and over again... because I wanted to be a man and I didn't want her to be a woman... A smart, free person who was something... What fucking mind then, so stupid that fucking mind stupid.... Jesus christ, what would I think, did I think for.... ? for what I've done ? She's my wife for thirty eight years... And I went behind her... over and over... Fucking asshole I am that I would go out and fuck and come home and get in her bed and say "I love you". This'z Jack's mother. His mother Lily. These two that I had and I lost... This is regret and this is the regret that you make and the blah, blah... Gimme a cigarette. Mistake like this Sometimes you make some and it's ok... Sometimes you make a loud... And you know you shouldn't do that... I loved Lily. And I cheated on her. She's been my wife for thirty eight years. And I have this son. And she has cancer. And I'm not there. And he's forced to take care of her. He's fourteen years old... To take care of his mother, watch her die on it. A little Kid. And I'm not there. And She's dying. She knew what I did, she knew all the fucking stupid things I've done but Love was stronger than anything. The goddamn regrets... The goddamn regrets... and now I'm dying... Now I'll die and I'll take it : what the hell ? The biggest regret of my life : I let my love go... What did I do ? I'm seventy five years old and I'm ashamed of that."

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